I Wonder If...

#NaNoWriMo LOG: DAY 23 (A 1st Timer’s Journey)
I finished my NaNoWriMo Challenge on the 21st and I’ve committed to continue my daily journal & self-portrait series through the end of the month. The two days since crossing the 50,000-word mark have been a vastly different mindset for me. I’ve been struggling with my own mind again, though. I love writing, I love writing more than ever. I feel like NaNoWriMo changed me in a lot of ways. But, here’s what I’m talking about…

I used my morning time to write an outline for a new talk I’ll be giving in February. I made good progress, completely ignored word count. I woke up an hour later than I would have if I were still writing for that mighty word-count, though.
My inner monologue reprimands me for being lazy, "Get up and write! What are you doing sleeping 'til 5:30? You're wasting time!"

I didn't take my self-portrait shot until almost 4pm. Much later than normal.
"Slacker," says my mind.

And here I am writing my daily journal post at 6:20p PT. Half a day later than usual. 
"You're falling apart! What is going on with you?!" My mind gets so upset at me sometimes.

Maybe I should take a break? Maybe I should rest? Maybe I should set another word count goal?

Ugh. I wonder if I just started thinking too much all over again.  ;)